I Will Sing of His Love Forever

People continue to ask how I am doing after the traumatic earthquake we experienced in Haiti and all the upheaval in our lives since then and I want to take a little time now and share with you my heart.

What I write now flows from within. I can’t help but write this. I can’t stop from praising God. I have a Father in Heaven who holds my hand, who supplies every need before I even remember to ask, who lovingly tells me to cast my burden upon Him, for His yoke is easy and His burden is light.

I am really a private person, but for some reason whenever I write, starting from the day we arrived in Haiti, I was never able to keep my thoughts, feeling and emotions out of my writing. So when I found out after the earthquake, through google analytics, that there were 5,000 people a day reading the blog in 90 countries around the world, I had mixed feelings. Half of me started to feel proud, I was famous wasn’t I? And the other part of me felt exposed, as if somehow, at the click of a button, the whole world had peaked into my heart.

Since then God has taught me so much! Like I said, God knows what we need before we even ask or when we don’t even know ourselves exactly what we need. To start out with, I needed a good dosage of humbleness. Several weeks scrubbing toilets and bathrooms at school was just the right prescription to put my feet back on the ground. A celebrity to a janitor all in a matter of days. Now that I am humble, He wants me to praise Him, so that the whole world, at a click of a button, can see how great He truly is.

That is my true purpose.

How can I praise Him? By telling you about what He has done in my life moment by moment and day by day. The day I knew my job was done at the school a flicker of worry ignited in my heart. What now? Would there be something else I could do to help supplement our income, fill the time that Jason was away, and that would allow me to have Jayden with me? Not even 10 minutes later the phone rang and I was offered a babysitting job, three days a week where I was able take Jayden with me. I hadn’t even thought of praying yet, but as soon as the phone rang I knew that He had provided. That’s how loving a God we serve. He knows better than we do what we need. He provides before we even think of asking. He loves us when we don’t deserve to be loved. He tells us time and again to give Him our worries, our sorrows, our uncertainties and in exchange he gives us peace, joy and hope. God didn’t stop after giving us the greatest gift of all, His Son on the cross to die for our sins, no, He continues to provide for us day by day and moment by moment.

Is it really possible that we would have a home completely furnished with everything we need in a couple of days? Yes, because everything was provided by God through people around us. Someone asked me today “Is there anything you still need? And I could honestly answer “No”. God has truly provided everything far beyond what I could hope or imagine! You know why? Because with God nothing is impossible.
He even turns what looks like bad things in our lives into good. Romans 8:28 says “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose". Humanly speaking it’s not a good situation having Jason gone three weeks at a time, and having very little communication with him while he is away. It could easily feel like we are living two separate lives and that this would make us grow apart. But God has used this to increase our love, respect and value for each other, and to treasure the times we have. He has used this to make our relationship with each other stronger and to teach us more about Himself. With God, I never feel lonely, even though I am alone.
When I first became a Christian, I didn’t want to tell anyone because I was afraid I couldn’t live without the love and approval of everyone around me. Since then I’ve come to learn that that the only One I can’t live without is God and I will sing of His love forever.